Gaaahhh

I've been a terrible delinquent blogger and with camp around the corner I just know that's going to persist. Here's hoping I'm wrong. I loved blogging and still do but I think I wait until the end of the day now instead of just posting when my brain is actually capable of it.

Over the past few months I've had some great moments, some really low moments, and some (what almost seem like) out-of-body moments.

Lows?

• Well, Madonna said, "time goes by, so slowly". Haha. I wish she were right. Time has flown and I feel like I have whiplash. Have I really been in California for 2.5 years?

• My dad still hasn't visited me here and although I know why (just found out), I still miss him like crazy.

• The overwhelming feeling that I am not living up to the potential that God has set out for me and just trying to seek it out.

• Seeing my husband go through a hard time spiritually and emotionally. If I could take it away from him I would.

• There honestly have been days where I've just said in tears, "Andrew, can we go home now?"

Highlights?

• A- in my Gospel Church and Culture class. God's Grace made that A- possible and I am now starting to feel that my passion for ministry is for helping and equipping leaders to understand that culture is everywhere and changing and can make our ministry mosaic look diverse and beautiful.

• Actually feeling more in love with my husband every day even though we have days where we're not at our best! I'm not the giddy excitable type so this is huge for me when I have a sudden urge to hug him 'till he's blue in the face. It's usually the other way around!!!
  

• I have been working with a group of very talented youth and young adults in the Bay area corps to put together a musical - Godspell. They have encouraged me with their drive, commitment and genuine love for sharing the Gospel in this way. Sunday is the concert and I'm really excited for what God will do and continue to do through each of their lives.

• I am blessed by great family and friends. First my brother came for V-day, my sister came to visit in March. My best friend and another great friend came to celebrate my 30th by taking me to Napa Valley. Andrew then took me up there again to celebrate on my actual birthday! I got to stay in an old train box-car that has been converted into a hotel room, eat at 3 fabulous restaurants, and siesta in a castle's vineyard. I've had birthday lunches and dinners with friends all week and I've now probably gained 30lbs as an ode to my 30th!

SO. I'm still asked, "Do I miss Toronto and all the people and places that I love?" I know those of you in the T.Dot might think that I've forgotten you.

Do I? YES. Every day. Without fail.

BUT I am reminded by my surroundings, experiences, and the awesome people that I meet and have become friends with here in California and am truly thankful for it all. I'm trying to be faithful and trust God's plan, as hard as it is. It's a beautiful one I'm sure ;)